I am just a curious life traveller. From the time I remember things about myself, my greatest preoccupation has been one of being in perpetual wonderment about everything around me. One of the things that I was keen about was watching and analysing human behaviour. Of the several aspects, my particular interest has been to watch human beings make decisions of their next step based on their strengths or thanks to smart thinking. That nano split second between a question or problem people may face, and the resolution they commit to commit to, to go to the next step is always a point of fascination for me. That would be the point, I have grown to recognise, as the point when imprints are formed in the Universal Database for future directions of life. That would be the point when I understood if folks led themselves with Self-Leadership or not. The point of Free Choice. We make such choices a billion or more times a day! I learnt the art of making the more peaceful or courageous free choices by watching many simple living forms in Nature. The poem IF has been a great influence on shaping my thoughts as well.
As a child I remember that many nights seemed like doomsday as I would have an unfulfilled desire of some sort or the other as the day drew to a close. But come morning, I would spring out of bed and the first thought that would occur to me would be, “How silly! Why did I feel so bad about such a trivial matter?!” Come night, and I started to recognise that my mind associated fatigue with failure of some kind again. Over time, I re-programmed myself to simply understand fatigue as just fatigue and a time to rest and never as a moment during when I should listen to my mind that got astray with negative imaginations. Life was only full of movements, rest and choices and not of doom.
Imagine, instead of only working at an abstract level of good practices, if one were to also focus at the nano level of being mindful and aware of oneself, and have the power to respond with smartness, maturity and poise, in order to bring a win-win solution to all around us… Then we are truly fractalising a successful unit of behaviour for better results.
At the core of living, therefore, is the single fractal unit of how we deal with Free Choice of every nano second.
For example, at this moment do I give in to lying down in bed still, or do I gracefully swing out of it to get on with the day with the intention of learning newer things?
When faced with wrath do I love myself and become an observer and empathiser or do I become a defensive or aggressive victim?
When I decide on something, am I aware of how much I want it over how much I need it?
Am I aware of how much actually I am still ignorant of all portions of all subject matters at any time?
Is my decision placed on compassion, humility, acceptance and forebearance? Or is it based on masked pain, masked guilt, masked desire?
Are my pains and desires so masked that I seek relief from the most apparently palatable placebo activities?
Am I fooling myself? Drugging myself? Numbing myself? Or am I able to recognise the challenge of the situation and set myself to deal with things one baby step at a time, with due respect but not undue dwelling on the pain, horror or perceivable unfairness of the situation?
Has my soul lost its control over my mind? Or can it redirect the mind to stay on track?
Has my mind stopped asking questions? Stopped enquiring? Or can it be motivated to stay motivated during the most deafening and dulling moments of my life?
Do I often feel like shutting down, cutting off, running away, ignoring something, putting something off, masking, imagining alternatives, day dreaming or being fanatical?
Do I cause more pain, small to big to others with my thoughts, words or action?
If I do any of these things can I catch myself and reset myself on track and face my fear, insecurity, worry, pain or any negative feeling and address it one baby step at a time?
Do I dwell on feeling I am constantly failing or being made to fail? Or do I wonder what solutions might work for the new challenges that have cropped up?
Do I feel that there is a happy-ever-after or a peaceful-right-now?
Do I seek quick fixes? Short cuts? Or do I have the strength to understand the root causes?
Do I seek enjoyment, relief, entertainment as a constant mode of relaxation from problems? Or am I interested in discovery of self and things beyond myself?
When I see another life form, do I get on guard or am I open, aware of how skillful I am of my reflexes and therefore proceed to study and learn about the other with awareness?
Does my breath catch with fear, pain or anxiety or does it draw in deep and slow with wonder most times?
Can I look at the big picture and in a trice recognise the fractal in it and then zoom in to work on the unit design for any problem? Or do I take the wrong route of giving in to fatigue simply because the size of the issue appears to matter more than the need to stay graceful with poise all the time?
Is winning really about winning or about having cracked the nano second challenge of being in the epicentre of peace, irrespective of the final outcome of the series of actions being implemented?
Would I rather take up the challenge of jointly enquiring than giving in to the need of ranting, raving, proving, or venting?
When I am totally confident, would I have the strength to act in a trice with no fear in my heart?
Would my past drown me to nitpick or flounder or does my immortal connection with ancient and futuristic energies propel me to stay in wonderment?
Would I grow old to think that the past was better or would I engage with young minds and watch with curiosity how they solve their problems?
Is my choice actually and totally free?
Being self aware; keeping the temporary mind in the custody of the immortal soul; using every faculty of the mind to engage in exploration and experiencing rather than in dwelling on hurts, pains and perceived failures and fears; being smart as far and as long as possible, knowing and accepting our vulnerability with humble acceptance…these are the lofty levels of Self Leadership that I enjoy motivating fractal entrepreneurs to reach.
Such has been my journey. My next steps are poised towards setting up a technology platform for this wonderful model that has brought about great impact on the ground. It would be great to have donors generously donate money towards this and join me in this journey. Feel free to write to me at firstname.lastname@example.org if you are keen. Be blessed.